7 weeks since it started..

why am i still so unorganize?
why am i still so unstable ?
what is happening to me ?

i am feeling so stress up .
what am i to do ?

few more days to 2009 .
i wish for

1. everyone to be healthy
2. pass my PRCP
3. be a better student nurse

Singapore...
is not big as compared to other country.
is not small if u want to find one person.

yet...
we met.

My favourite song~
sang along~
cheered ~
took a pic ~

Lee An is still the same!
Perf was wonderful!
His smile is still the same!
He still sweats alot!

And.. omgoodness...
took a pic with him and friends...
shall be posting soon after getting it
from fren's cammie~~!

also took one with BoYi~
XD abit paiseh but i think BoYi is
very good ,so i just went forward to her ><

Already feel very content.. so i just stayed for awhile
and took some pic of LeeAn with other people and left..

i think i will be very content for 1 whole month with
this event which just took place, and radio show tomorrow
and concert on Tues and Hereen perf~~
i think i can stay happy for my this whole month
when i am working...

yesterday was my patient's birthday..
so he got a cake..
today is ___ birthday and she is getting herself a cake.
tomorrow is another patient's birthday..
he is also gonna get a cake..

see my pov?
when u are young.. u celebrate ur birthday ..
be it alone or with family or frens...
but when u are old..
are u to spend ur bday lying on a sick bed?

i think one of pt is getting abit depressed..
i could sense it..
but.. i cant help him in anyway..
his family doesnt want him, i cant brg him
home can i? it is impossible... but seriously
i feel sad for him u noe.. and his family.. i think..
they are feeling stress up thats why they do not want
to take care of him... but think about it another way
if they were the one sick..do they want their husband/father
to jus chuck them in hospital? no right? sometimes.. i just
cant undersand human nature... why dont they think for
each other and empathise each other? yes i mean
emphatise not symphatise... the world will be good if
everyone can emphatise each other...

sooo..wad havie i been doing these few days??
basically, my prcp just started officially on Monday..
and today (Thur) is my off day =) and tomorrow is also
my off day..and i will be on AM shift on Saturday and Sunday!
so weekend is the day ED trolly will be open to check.
So~~ i mus grab this opportunity to see how they do it so
that i can do it on my next weekend shift!

waaa...i am getting closer n close to twenty already!
gotta be more mature soon..
working life starts officially at June next year..
tts IF i pass my prcp. and i also got to pass their
6 months of probation of not i will have to pay the bond money..
ANDWAE~~~~!!! *breaksdown upon thinking about it*

this few days i have been thinking about saving money..
recently economy...seem to be a downturn??
how shud i save my money so that i have enough
for my future? how shud i invest it safely??
or shud i not invest since all investment carries some risk?
saving is as important as health to me...

*sees afew more strands of grey hair*
aigooooo~
in this current time arh... is like so impossible
to stay alive with a salary of 1.5K la..
yea...many people were so shock when they heard that
nurses earn 1,5K and thats including the ?% that is
going into CPF =.="

shant think about it la..

So... i just came back from Korea 2 days ago...
would really love to go there again ,not for shopping
but to see the senery coz i realise is the same shopping
anywhere in any country... is the senery which are different.
The weather is definitely great as compared to current
weather in Singapore.. For my days there it didnt rain..
it was very cooling.. jus a sweater will be great
and u can still feeel the nice wind =)

When i was there i really missed my home alot though..
i missed my parents, my siblings, my room and toilet and house...
i missed my mother's cooking too..
is only for a week..
i cant imagine those people who stay there
long term for work.. the homesick feeling mus
be very terrible..

i hate this maid.... is this the way she shud care for her ahma??

aldou is not her real ahma.. i think she shud still think..

if she is my real ahma do i wan ppl to treat her that way..

i think she is really black heart or steel heart..

i see ler really bth lor...

i wonder who will she behave if her madam and sir is around...

when they around she become so kind hearted...

why do these ppl exist? they shud jus go to hell la..

ahma already there bleeding and u still there wipe even harder

and make blood ooz even more?

make until pampers also have.. told u about the right way yet

u always jus wanna make the whole procedure so dirty...

how will ahma heal if u dun care for her the right way?

u get tired of doing it then jus do it well so that ahma can get well la...

wads u motive for wiping so heard, making ahma bleed and groan and

her sore never get better?? are u really having some mental problems?

so u need a shrink??? u love to toture people isit??

u are really a sicko... i dread seeing your evil look can??

i dread looking at u reading love stroy.. why are u even hired?!

i wonder how ur madam and sir will react if they see u treat ahma this way...

seriously should suggest to them sack this fucking iresponsible maid...

she has no heart to be ahma caregiver lor...

this is a maid "toture" ahma story. another one leh??

is the ahma fracture den shoulde n leg is in v pain... and she got this maid...

and when the maid do changing for her with staff, the ahma will jus box

the maid with her full might or pinch her maid with full might... and u can

really see bruises on her arms can??? who can stand this sia?? omg... her punch..

i mean.. ok u are sick u are in bad mood.. but u shuden be abusing the person

who is taking her effort to take care of u..at least she is taking good care of u..

she is not like poisoning or harming u eh.. it is not easy for her to look after u also lor...

wad if u drive her mad one day? u are the one who will suffer lor...

this is a ahma "toture" maid story..

i really feel that.... wadever we do... think of urself as the person..

or think of that person as someone u love.. like.. the 1st maid...

she shud think... if i am like ahma so old n nid ppl take care..

so i wan my maid to take care of me liddat?? if she doesnt wan i think

she will treat ahma better lor... if she wans... i think she really nids to see a shrink..

for the ahma.. she shud think lor... aldou she is sick..

wdv la.... if she is taking care of a person she dont really know,

does she wanna get punch n pinch liddat?

walau ey..wad is this world man.

Attachment so far has been fine...
my patients are very nicey!
some of my SNs and ANs are really nice!
Sister and Brothers are good too..

except that i am sick...
i shuden go to work if im sick but
then... im already sick for like 4 days..
cannot expect me take 4 days mc ryt??
so i rather go to work with the water-tap nose
and blocked ears..but im on precaution ok..
i dont sneeze or blow my nose in front of my pts..

is already thursday and i am looking forward to friday!!
and after that 2 days of rest..
PLEASE let time pass slower during these 2 days!!
i wanna spend time with my family...
now is like i wake up ,they sleeping ..
i come back they are gonna sleep/ @ work.. haha
saturday and sunday~~~

tired.
sad.
inferior.
irritated.

Had dinner at Maru with SY yesterday night..
catch up with each other's life...
she is working busily to save money...
while me,i told her im worrying about prcp..
asked her to go Korea with us for a break..
she turn me down T_T

The food were nice..
just that i dont really like their kimchi..
i prefer Hangfong's and Seoul Yummy's..
was very full..
and when we left and walk towards the bustop,
we saw some fireworks display~!
it was from Clarke Quay..
very pretty~! especially green color fireworks!!!

Head down to plaza sing's carrefour for her to get
something... saw a group of teens creating public
nuuisance... wtf??? they were like howling so noisily...
and there was a customer who walked pass me and
asked" Why suddenly so many dogs are howling?"
i jus laughed at him... yea why do they wanna seek
attention in such a bad way?? dont really get teenagers
nowadays... so boliao and irritating!

while SY was bz choosing her things..
i saw something which made me "wow"
lol..
i saw another group of teen young boys..
they were walking but one guy was walking solo
behind them.. so i continue to look at them
coz they are good looking.. and it was so late
and they are still roaming? so i see see see
suddenly the solo guy behind them kissed
on of the guy in that group.. on his neck
O__O and i think they are frens la..
coz the guy who got kissed din hit the
guy who kissed him.. he jus "shrink"..
if u wanna noe wad i mean..
mb get someone to kiss u on your neck or
ur sensitive area...

so we headed for home..


hais... attchment is starting !!!
in less than 24 hours!!!
for 6 weeks!!!
i hope i can survive that 6 weeks!!!
i am very anxious about it..
and also very worried..
why do we have so many attachment in
3 years of polylife while other courses
only have one and they can enjoy so much more
than us?!?! and yet people still think
Nursing is easy and slacky?! T_T

i was crying as i ate "my" lunch which is
suppose to be for my nam dongsaeng..

guess wad?
i finally see thru a person he is..

i went to get lunch for him and had lunch with
umma and meimei..
it was sunny when we went down to buy..
after i bought his lunch, i realise it was
raiining,and of coz i called him to come
and fetch me with an umbrella..
guess wad he said...

"why didnt u all bring umrella down?! and
now u want me to bring umbrella down for u all?
jus run home la! "

so, this is wad u call f-a-m-i-l-y.
alryt... i finally noe how he treats us..
is bringing down an umbrella for ur family
when it is raining less important? Gaming is more
important?? fine, play the game..
play for as long as u want.. play till you die
in front of the pc and i am not gonna fucking care..

i am not angry..
i am dissapointed.

how can someone be so... cold hearted?
and yes i finished his lunch..
he doesnt deserve to eat this lunch which we
walk under the rain to get home..

and guess wad?
he cursed me.
"I hope u choke to death."
because i coughed when i ate the rice.

i coughed not becoz of the rice..
is the tears which i "swallowed"

I learnt a lesson today..
and i got to thank my OWN blood-related blooded brother.
If he can gang up with outsiders to bully us
wad things can he not come up with?

As of today, he will no longer be my brother in my eyes.

Easter Island.. i shall be there sometime in my lifetime.

i really cannot take the fact that Lee Eon passed away..
imagine u on the computer in the morning and
u scroll around the news site and suddenly
theres a report telling you your favourite actor passed
away.. how would you feel?? seriously i stoned in front
of my laptop for god-knows-how-many seconds before
i was shocked and i began searching other news site to
see that if it is real... ok,i didnt cry but i jus felt that
it was unfair for him.. he has jus started to get more
famous and people are noticing him and this happen?
and wad more? on the day he finish his drama?
who would have thought that this will be his last drama?
no one.. imagine happily attending this celebration for
finishing the drama and this accident just happened
when u least expected...

so many talented people died this year..
be it in Singpore or Korea..
Why did they die when it is their best opportunity?
we really cant go against Destiny..

Watched 4Bia with Sushi as agreed..
hmm..this movie isnt as scary as i thought
it will be or maybe is only me coz Sushi was
scared by some sences several times.. yea..
it is hard to satisfy me a super-horror-movie lover..
total of 4 stories.. the 3rd one really spiced up the
movie coz there is humour in it..
isnt it scary to not know u are dead??
and u thought u are alive... but actually u are dead..
*shivers..

attachment is starting on Monday!!!
T_T so fast... i dont want....
6 weeks of it leh.. how
to make it?? im really scared... but
i got to do my best for my trip to Korea..

i hope Lee Eon R.I.P.

he is really a very talented person..
from wrestler.. model to actore.
he is meant to shine.

Had chalet outing with classmates from 19082008 till 20082008..
ii m sure it will be a wonderful memorable day for everyone of us..
took grp photos and took some photos with our lecturer..
she was so touched when we present her our best teacher award..
is like those real tokens of appreciation which school will give..
but she din expect us student to give her that also. she almost cried..
one of my friend got drunk and it was really damn cute and funny..
but i din have enough sleep so i was really tired.. so thruout
the whole journey to Shy's house we were all dozing on the train..
went to her house to watch a japanese movie..
but it was really very boring... and i fell asleep halfway thru..
im suprised that some of my fren could finish watching it..
cool.. like i said i dont really like romance movie..
so maybe thats why i fell asleep.. lol..
but i will be catching a thai horror movie with Sushi at afterenoon
around 5pm ...i love Thai, Korea and Japan horror movie..
Thai is number 1 love for horror movie...
4Bia. shall watch and give my own review after it.. lol
i am really looking forward after watching the preview..

and yesterday they were watching this Korean drama
at channel U 10pm... and when it end the song was
Happy My Star... they went "Jesc jesc!! lee an's song!! "
so i went in to listen and to my suprise...
hmm... it doesnt sound like Leean's voice at all..
and i told them i dont think it is LeeAn singing..
and soo, i was right... i went to yahoo search today
and found out that the Korean full version is by
this guy call GulHwee?? or wad featuring As One..
i prefer LeeAn's version because i think it sound
so much happier.. while the drama version makes
me feel sadder O_O" the way the singer sings
out the whole song..his voice like so sad...
LeeAn rocks..
and i really miss listening to his live performance..
i was listening to his songs on mp3 and den i
really started to playback his performace..
really miss it..

i bought Girls' Generation Repackaged CD + DVD
and damn..theres a crack on the cover @__@
but quite lucky that it was jus on their shirt..
if is on their face i might go and ask for an exchange
which i don even noe if it is allowed..

Will be meeting SY this saturday for dinner
@ Korean restaurant Maru... been a long time
since i met up with her.. wonder how is she..
mus be earning lots of money.. lol =)

Decided to change my header..
coz i found this pretty Aurora!!!
also changed the video to Seo Taiji's Maoi
coz this is my latest hook =)
like the melody and the lyric..
and most imprtantly i like this Legend.

hope to see it once in my lifetime =)

i cant wait to go Korea~~~!

Tomorrow will be my last paper..
Yips!

alryt shall go back n study =)
im beginning to love this new header even more!

i have successfully finish my ns5 final paper~!
1 more nurm paper on monay and thats it~!
good bye to exam and hello to Attachment~!
SCARY!!!!

can i become a successful nurse..
scared!!

due to my pms i have been
feeling very sleepy and easily agitated this few
days..i even fell aslp studying for nurm @_@"

Exam and last presentation is coming!
i am super anxious..
i got study la.. but still... last exam eh so die die
mus pass it if not i have to do contract learning a
and go back school during PRCP... shilluhyo!!!
so i die die mus pass...

3.2 attachment also die die mus pass
because after it de 2 weeks holidays
i am going Korea!!! if fail i have to
redo 3.2 again.. shilluhyo!!!!!

Have been damn crazy trying to
balance time between project,
revision, finding air tix n accomodation
to Korea and also .. gaming ><...
24 hrs is nt enough!!! i have like alot
of white hair suddenly la... aldou majority is
still blackk T___T saddd!!!

i am loving my LG laptop =D

My dongsaeng burst my green balloon which
i got in school because it was Nurses Day on 1Aug!!!
T_____T She burst it today when i wasnt @ home!!!
WHY DID SHE HAVE TO KILL MY BALLOON?!
i knew it will get burst one day by her! thats why i kept
telling her not to touch it!!! Why cant she listen to me?!
i almost wanted to hit her when she told me!!!
T_T and idk if she burst it delibrately cz she said
it jus burst when she put in between her legs!
RAR?! isnt it obvious that it will burst if u put a
balloon like that?! i mean she is already going on 9,
so she should noe ryt?!!?!??!!? T________T
Qi Si Wo Le!!!!!!! T_T but i didnt hit her of coz...

Anw went out with Appa and Umma...
bought a new fridge coz the old one is
really dead. really sadded la! if i knew this
is gonna happen i wun want a house warming...
spent $ on house warming and result in a spoil fridge
and nid to spend $ on new fridge again.. =.=
also bought my 1st lapptop, black LG notebook...
everything is good.. has the in0built function i want
and also within the budget..

didnt have any lessons today
and i tot i will have a happy day.

but..
tearss is the only word i can describe my day.

House warming ended a few hours ago~
very happy that everything went off smoothly.

my frens like my green room =D
GREEEEEEEEEN =D

Buffet food was cooked by aunty (Appa's younger sister)
and it was really delicious la~!
Better than those outsside de lor =)
especially noodles and chicken and vege and gui ling gao


i think all of them who came ate well
and were full... i ordered 6 trays of sushi
cz i tot 60+ people 3 trays wun eb enough, but i
was wrong.. after the guest finish eating i still
had 4 trays left O.O
but luckily after packing some for ahma i had
3 and a half trays left.. my frens who left
came back for the sushi.. We dn manage to finish
so i gave Sushi to bring home for her family..
and she told me they finished it. ^_^
Very happy.

Ahma talked to me just now..
Love talking to her.. becoz aldou she is
only 60+ but experience alot.. so
she will tell me how i should behave..
when i was 14 15 i alwys turn off
my ears when she nags.. now thinking
back, i was such a bad granddaughter.
Told her that nex time when i have
the ability to buy a house, i will buy
a big one so that we can stay wit her
instead of letting her stay with "them".
who always create problems for ahma.
Packed some sushi for ahma to bring HOME
for "THEM". and accompanied her to MRT
station becz the sushis were heavy..
really breaks my heart when ahma
soes all these for "them" who takes things
for granted... =.=

I realised that my couse Dine is determine
to enter nursing after her Os this year..
was really shocked.. coz i didnt expect it.
but i have got to agree she has this heart
vut out for nursing.. and i can imagine her as
a nurse caring for patient.. but the problem is
her parents are not supportive of her going into.
I mus agree her results are too good for Diploma
Nursing.. But i was so stupid i should have
suggested to her, if u really wanna be a nurse,
with your results u can enter JC an den take
degree nursing in NUS.. aiya.. instead of a slower step
whereby u take a Dip den u need to work before u
can talk Advance Dip. or Degree.

Housewarming really made the house livlier
Very happy...

Thank you to those who came and hope
u all enjoyed =)

My parents threw away my golden balloon
when i wasnt @ home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*WAILS!!!!!!!!!

Have been really busy for this whole week..
have barely enough sleep @_@
my dark eye rings are gonna have a "comeback"
ㅠ_ㅠ

Received a letter from TTSH asking
me to choose the discipline i want for my
PRCP >_< what should i do???!?!?
really in a confuse status...
not sure if i will choose the wrong posting
am really worried about it...
Operating Theatre?
ICU?? or jus a
general ward???
*CIRESSSSSSSSSS

NAPFA test is next thursday and
it crashes with my NSL practical exam!
which means i have to bring sports attire
and nursing uniform and own clothes to change!
RARRR!!!! i dont even think i m gonna run la..
>_> look at me? do u think i have the stamina
to run 2.4km in 16mins to pass?! haha..
big fattest hope! *walks 6 rounds

next Friday will be Nurses' Day celebration
@ school~ the last "celebration" in school
before official study weeks starts and then
the 2 exam papers and then 6 weeks of
attachment followed by two weeks of holidays
and thnt he nightmare 14 weeks of PRCP!!!
OMOOOOOOOOOOO!!
i am like shivering just thinking about it la
@___@ How can i cope?!?!?

Might be going Seoul during 1 of the 2 weeks
holidays.. just to have some fun and relax
abit before real stress begin lor~ sighs.
but everything is still unconfirm...
a 70% chance of going ba..
if i were to buy a laptop i wun have enough
cash to go Seoul.. if i wanna go Seoul i
need to save up again for a laptop..
what should i do now??

Finally finished up with 1 module presentation.
upcmoing ones include:

Monday , NS5
Tuesday, Nursing Mgmt
Next Thurs, WPD
Next Next ___ , FYP (eat 1 day of our study week!)
and during the study weeks everyone has got
to go back to school for tough NS5 remedials..
everyone is so damn stress about NS5 la..
haiz.. what to do?
this is Nursing ma...

dont even noe when will i hav the time to update..
becoz i dont even have time to fangirl now..
everything is about project whenever i on the com..

kiks all the projects away~~~!!!!**

Has been a llong time since i blog coz
i officially moved house~

internet connection came back only yesterday..
i almost died during that 1 whole week w/o a
net connection la~!

actually...it was ok la..
coz i was also busy helping out
to layout our furnitures and clean up the cabinets..

my golden balloons.
2 deflated liao T_T
but 1 of it is still "exploring" in my room~!
and the size is still the same eh~!!!
=D

went to shopped @ IKEA with umma and appa
today... bought 2 study tables me and dongsaeng,
and 1 new bed for dongsaeng... she had a new one..
but it has been passed to me just now..
coz i think she will like this new bed better.. and didnt
wanna waste the bed parents bought for her few days
ago so i took it lor... suit me also la jus that i dun like
the flor prints.. also bout a new blanketv and a cover.. the cover
is damn pretty~! it is Green =D
2 study chairs for me and dongsaeng..a white a black.
and also bought some hangers for myself..
umma only bought this toilet paper holder
for herself in the end >_>"
spent $550 in total but i think quite worth it la.
need some racks for putting my textbooks but
IKEA seems to benot selling it anymore
but appa says he will get for me @ his workplace..

gonna have house warming this coming Sun~
and after that will be NSL prac exam!!!O_O
and 2 study weeks and den exam..
and attachments @ ED and OT..
2 weeks of holidays and den...
PRCP.


I AM SCARED.

It was a heart-warming and fun concert.
alou i really dislike the people behind me..
they were talking so loudly, distrbing my ears
which was meant for the concert and not
their conversation ~_~

Now my 3 golden balloons are all asleep,
they will be shifting house together with me
on Sunday...

Got a new poste and i really like all my posters
so far.. this new one is more special?
it gives off a different "aura" of him..

During the concert, had the urge to stand up
and cheer but nobody was standing up..
den i am also very scared to stand up alone and suddenly..
but i think the atmosphere was really great..
The song again... it touched me...
tell me a day that i will not cry for it..
i guess it is difficult..

Theres something special about his voice..
it can change the mood and atmosphere..
Everytime i listen to Happy My Star i will
feel very energetic and happiness..

When i listen to On Your Birthday i will
feel very... "playful" is not the right word la..
my vocabulary is not very good..

And when i listen to his ballads..
i will feel some kind of "hearbreaks"..

Come into my life and Mother makes me feel
the relationship between two person who are important in
you life..

Really envied the people who got the necklaces as
a gift.. i am sure many fans wanted it but sadly the DJ
only looked at those sitting on top...

And after the concert rushed back to school
because i had to perform operating theatre
skills tosecondary scool students so that they may
choose nursing as their poly course..
In the OT scrub suit, it is really warm...
and in dramas, those surgeons sweating,
i believe in real situation they do sweat too??

Shifting house in a weeks time..
went to my new house just now..
hmmm... my neighbour is kind of anti-social..
>_> closes the door whenever we go there.. zz
i like my parents' room toilet~
v bright.. unlike the common toilet..very dark..
and the kitchen is very dark too... ~_~
i am looking forward to painting my room ^^V

i passed my NS5.
i was shocked.
i cried because i was really shocked.

i passed my DDD.
i was shocked.
i didnt cry.

i suppose i will pass my NURM.


im shocked.
T_T

Brought dongsaeng to shopping mall
and brought her a shoe...
>_> she finds t nice...
i was the one who wanted to buy
my things but ended up i jus cant find the
ones i like...oh well...

Had dinner with my family to celebrate
Fathers' Day..a simple dinner outside..
the soup is very nice!!! wahhahahaha~

after that watched TV...
KBS2 ..the show was so funny!!!

after that went to play Kaudition...
fun fun!!

opps.. i have been slacking duuring my holiday
=X and i m going out again tomorrow
with CC..and tuesay for dance O_O
and wed- fri will be filming for our Emergency Dept
case senerio... oppss time fliesss..
and school will reopen again ㅠ ㅠ

XX will be returning to Korea today night!!
cant wait to listen to her happenings during her trip!!
ooooo and i nid to prepare the $ in case she
buys all the things i told her to buy for me~
>_<

am super high now aldou it is already 0430am
O_O shall go n sleep. =x

my favourites~~! ^_^

had dinner with Dian at HanFoong..

i like the rice cake very much~!!

sweet n spicy sauce~~

Masschiseo!!

ate kimchi chigae with rice..

even the plain rice is nice!!!

will be organising Korea Fair in our school

me and Dian need to find people selling

K-related stufss in our school... and $ donate to

chairity... hmmmm.... who to find???

Very happy today~~
Had my 1st korean language lesson with Carol!!
It was quite fun becoz teacher talked to us for awhile before
the lesson started..sort of brought up the atmosphere...
Too bad Dian cant attend~~ haha..
Min will be joining us next week~
cool~!

Went to teacher's house for dinner becoz she invited us...
Her unni cooked kimchi fried rice and 2 side dishes...
Spicy!!! She introduced us to some of the korean students staying
there...atmosphere was kind of weird but after dinner...
it was quite ok la.. coz she talked to us about religion..
everything was fine... and we did talked abit (really abit) in korean..
still not very good though...
Teacher's unni's house is very big~!!
3 storey!! waaaaa!!

So when walking to MRT station going home,
Teacher's nam dongsaeng say he thinks learning
english is difficult... den i said learning korean is difficult..
lol... actually it depends on where we grow up from...
i remember one of the korean girls stayed in indonesia for
7 years and she can speak indonesian!!
cool isnt it?? english korean and indonesian!!
waaa..as if i can ever learn so many language...
shall use my holidays to read the book that SHY's
father lend us before the next lesson on saturday ^^
about language structure....

korean language is really special...
shall learn it well before our korea trip on october~!


hwaiting~~! p(^o^)q

Simple is beautiful.
Life is simple.
Life is beautiful.

Why do we complain that everything is so complex
when we are the one who make it complex?

Que sera sera.

i feel so sad today...
i am really worried about my nursing science 5 results.
T_T what if i fail ?
Although i m telling my frens "aiya over over ler,dont worry too much"
but me myself.. i am really scaring a deep shit inside.
i cant imagine studying for it but getting a E.

I also couldnt learn my dance properly just now..
mixed up my steps...
T_T

i am failing...

Studied at school just now...
totally...they really made my blood boil over 100 degrees!~!
imagine U trying to study there and there they are
a group of 18 19 years old TEEN (should i call them KID?!)
running around playing catching, talking loudly, flirting, taupok-ing?!
u just feel like going up to them and give a smack on their face.
THEY ARE SO NOISY AND CHILDISH.
but ya i manage to get some infos into my brain..
im kind of happy that my paper tomorrow is 4pm.
at least i have more time to study....

Today paper was ok...
i dont think i will do extremely well but i
noe i will not fail it la.. ><

was watching the news just now and felt happy
2 more survivors from the sichuan earthquake..
21 days since it took place and 2 male survivors...
They really have a strong will...

T_T cant catch on the beat at channel U
tommorow which has Lee An's interview coz i have
my dance session!!! T________T
shall ask my dong-saeng to record for me~~
hope can ><


HAve a good night sleep eveyone ~

my common test is coming in a few more hours time (less than 24hrs!!!)
i am very scared!!!
focusing alot on y nursing science 5!!!
reading ECGs and operation nursing cares!!!
Prays every hard for my clique to all do it well~!
and of coz the everyone~!!
dont want to get bad results becoz i noe ummawill not be happy
about it..TTSH will not be bappy aout it..
and also most imptly I WILL NOT BE HAPPY ABOUT IT.

i dun wanna take a retest for it and waste my holiday
coz i wanna spend my holiday doing my assignments..
all of us have tons of assignments w8ing for us to
finish before our TWO weeks holiday ends..and we
also got to do our filming... gosh...
thats really alot...

feeling stressed even during holiday...
wad a good holiday...

something brighten up my day today =)

my 동생 smsed me and said that someone called home to find me
and it is about Lee An's album =) i was at school studying..
and having my lunch and i really screamed when i saw the sms..
i won his album from 933's Ha Ben Ying!!! i was one of the
first 5 to send the email~~ finally after waiting for so long
thinking that i might not have won... i got the call~~~
weeeeee~~ although i alread ybought one but i shall keep it
as a treasure =) really happy.

The necklace is really pretty..
feel so sad that i was nt one of the 5 who called in
T____T

i went to buy a new mouse..
a black squarry one... it is so pretty ^_^
love it =)

Hope everyone had a nice day today~!
Anneong!
Hwaiting~~~!! p(^_^)q

A video of Lee An oppa singing Love Will Always Be You..
sorry for the terrible shaking ><"
i really like this song alot... the lyrics are really touching..
Saw a video from his blog from Omy and the voice said
"future plan of Mini concert" i went O_O n happy~!!
i really wan a Lee An Mini Concert~~ ><

So finally it rain today..
so cooling and refreshing after such a hot day ^^
I guess weather really affect a mood..
my friends are all so nervous and angry recently...
i hope all of them will rest well..
i guess all of us are tired from school work..
and our common test is also coming..
everyone...lets jiayou~!

Just had my nursing prac test this morning...
i didnt do my best T__T
i studied for it... but when i went in the test room
... dont know how to explain... but i shall say it in simpler term..
i connect my oxygen tubing to ventilator but i din turn on oxygen..
(i know i need to turn on to 15L but i think bcoz during practice we are all
used to verbalising that i only verbalise during my test) but my accessor wants
"Action" not "Talking"... aigoo... sad la T_T why do i always never get things
done the right way??

Shall go and study my nursing science 5 now...
anneong~~

Everyone Hwaiting!

Photos...

Firstly wanna thank Sky for lending me her phone and

Dian for helping us take the pic of me and the gal n Lee An



Just saw Lee An's press conference pictures at Singapore Flyer..


he look really great.. like what i commented at his blog..


너무 멋있다~~





shall upload the pictures taken that day ><

^ 귀엽다~~! ><

i missed the CNA show because i had my Korean Cultural Club CCA...

T_T wasted!! because we went there and then the system said that we

did not book the room so, we canot on anything except the lights..

i guessed all the members were unhappy...coz as a committee myself i

am also quite ashame about it..

i really look forward to more of his activity but

at the same time i hope Lee An will rest well...

i listened to his song this morning

and i cried... this song really makes me feel very very sad..

Hwaiting!

Thank you...

今天决定用华文。。

因为想慢慢的想自己想说的话。。

我觉得会是很长的一篇。。

如果大家累了就别读吧 =）

很高兴能够在看到你出唱片。。 很高兴你没有放弃当歌手的梦想。。

你真的是一位很特别的韩国歌手。。

带着不同的形象。。。 不同的曲风。。。

真得让我很感意外。。。 看起来更年轻。。更有活力。。

唯一不变的就是你腼腆的笑容。。

韩国。。新加坡两地跑。。一定很不简单。。

你真得很勇感。。

听丽仪说你回韩国拍MV没戴手套。。 衣服又不够结果有点病倒。。

有“一点点”难过。。 希望你能好好照顾身体。。

对你来说。。讲华语已经很不简单了。。 你还能写华文的歌词。。。 真

得很厉害。。。你不用担心。。你的华文我们都听得懂。。

“此开始 我们都一起

不管事情 多难过

偶尔望着天空 开怀大笑吧

让所有不愉快 都被带走

能希望我们有 美好的未来。”

简单的歌词。。

刚才想在图书馆温书时。。。真的很难。。。

脑力头想的都是签常会发生的事情。。 一瞬间真的。。。

太快了。。。

里安要加油！！！ （ps:我的”里“没打错。。）

他不是“李安”。。他是里安。

你们应该认识他。